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This show is intended as a form of therapy for myself as well as helping those that identify as a victim of abuse. it is also meant for those that are dealing with addiction.I am in active in NA now and in group therapy.I am a survivor of childhood sex abuse. I am a drug addict in recovery. As a fair warning; some might find this show at its content triggering so please use caution as I talk in detail about my life and those things that happened to me.Be a blessing and may you find serenity.

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Mother may I…move on 26:02

vor 20 hours26:02

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Today’s episode deals with my first Mother’s Day after my mother’s passing last October. Unlike other past episodes, this one really doesn’t deal with Group Therapy. This is just something that I went through. Today’s reading is taken from some poems that I read from Robert frost. One of the poems is one of the poems that I read the first time the night that I got raped for the first time by the teacher. it is always had a special place. Some of the things that I deal with is being able to handle tragedy, which means you can be able to handle the world. I also felt like Mother’s Day or the passing of your last parent was practice for your own funeral especially if you’re the last one.…

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Crucifixion: you too can become a Martyr 26:00

vor 12 Tagen26:00

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In this episode, I discussed the group therapy session that was before Easter, and about the concept of murder them, but only for the survival of sex abuse, but also the survivor of addiction. Today’s reading was taken from a poem by Walt Whitman entitled “to him that was crucified”. I start off by with a group to find from Webster’s is the term of martyr. I didn’t move into the different kinds of death like humiliation disappointment, and endup in the banalities of life. It was just a concept that people actually die before they actually die. I then talk about suicide and the search for a quality per Walt Whitman. All everyone together The junkies conundrum…

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Trust in Medicine: telehealth or telewealth 26:47

vor 6 weeks26:47

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This episode, is it getting taken from the group therapy session with the topic was seeing a psychiatrist or seeing a nurse practitioner through a television. Some of the guys in the group didn’t like it bothers liked it without a human being physically in the room. Decision also involved you guys talking about the hierarchy between group therapy and individual one on one therapy. This podcast session the reading was from Neil postman’s Technopoly. This was a book that I read about matriculated in experimental design.…

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The orange peel of despair: a new mental illness 26:36

vor 15 weeks26:36

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This episode is based on more group therapy sessions in which the group diagnosed American voters. This is a reference to the phenomena of trans placement wherein a patient believes they themselves are a doctor or therapist. This is due to the expertise afforded patients the total time in therapy. This reading is from Emma gold man’s “minorities vs majorities.…

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Dear mother: a eulogy for a hard woman 27:21

vor 26 weeks27:21

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My mother passed away. This episode I talk about the cycle of life, funerals, being missed, being remembered, and the role of children. My mother wore the chain she forged in life, and pressed it upon me. I feel a sense of relief for her passing. Her birthday approaches and I feel nothing. I read again from Poe. The cycle of life repeats. My turn to die is in play.…

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Nobody for president 26:12

vor 37 weeks26:12

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This episodes deals with the election for president as politic entered group therapy recently. I read from Anarchism and other essays by Emma Goldman. The article is entitled “patriotism: a menace to liberty. The real separation of human is based on wealth: rich vs poor. I call for a national divorce between American and politicians.…

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I don’t know (Clean and Sober) 25:20

vor 46 weeks25:20

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In this episode I discuss a new member to the group who was diagnosed with co curing and has decided to do both, group therapy and NA. I read from my copy of the narcotics anonymous blue specifically on recovery and relapse. My opinion of therapy methodologies is just that , my opinion. I support whatever works for you. NA didn’t work for me. Life is not a group effort Treatment becomes our new addiction…

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This is War! 25:00

vor 1 year25:00

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This episode is about a therapy session topic again; Memorial Day weekend. We spoke of life as war metaphor, the difference between surviving and victim. There is also mention of the current state of conflict around the world, and the purpose of remembering those that died fighting. I read from Robert Bloch “material instinct”, part 2. Prepare for it and remember. Party this weekend and be grateful for war.…

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Take a chill pill or prepare for horror 25:01

vor 1 year25:01

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This episode deals with a few therapy sessions and the topic of patience. I deal with patience itself and the origins of the frustration they comes with someone telling you to relax or calm down. I talk about horror movies in the 80s. Good times.

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3 days of death 25:48

vor 1 year25:48

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This episode is really about the last month or so and my battle with serious illness. Influenza A Pneumonia Sepsis blood infection I read from Lovecraft story Herbest West reanimator. I know it is not a standard episode but what the hell… I survived.

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Age is the final cage 24:06

vor 1 year24:06

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This episode is another based on group therapy and what I’m dealing with my mother being in a nursing home. These are observations I have made for my mother as well as the other residents of the home. The reading is Whitmans “Thanks or old age” I also use the bill Murray film Groundhog Day to express the similarities between repetition and seeing your life from point of old age.…

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The group diagnosed me : I’m angry (Dr Lovecraft told me to chill out) 28:59

vor 1 year28:59

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Today’s episode is an update on my life dealing with my mom in a nursing home. I went to group therapy and told them what I feeling. They told me I was angry because my own life had disappeared. I don’t agree. The reading is HP Lovecraft’s “Dagon”. I chose it for obvious reasons. If you are a victim of rape like me or any kind of abuse you can always reach out to me and talk. I’m here to listen No judgment ever…

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Elder care and nursing homes in the United States of America 28:29

vor 1 year28:29

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Respect vs Rules In this episode my topic is based on my experiences with my mom’s nursing home and all the paperwork involved with her care. I talk about the nucleus of medica in America: who’s gonna pay this bill? I read from Irving Goffman’s “Asylums”. I focus on the binary deviations of organizational structure and function. These revolve around the private vs public, as well as, the individual vs group. In the end this episode is about the roles we play in society and our inability to accept the natural law of our roles changing over time.…

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Time machines 25:57

vor 2 years25:57

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Ray Bradbury once called people “books just walking around”. Well, I believe people are time machines too. This episode I continue documenting my life as I transition my mother to nursing care. I talk about packing her stuff and it ending up in storage. I talk about her sadness turning to anger at her aging goes natural, but wrong according to her reality. I read Mending wall by Robert frost…

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Mom fell and is now in a nursing home (Am I a good son?) 27:34

vor 2 years27:34

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Today’s episode is based on recent events involving my mother and her falling. She had been living on her own and fell. Luckily the pharmacy was delivering her meds and found her. No one knows for sure how long she was out. I look at the past week and how it is going being her son. Am I a good son? I read the funeral poem by Mary Frye, do not stand at my grave and weep. There is no reference to group therapy in this episode.…

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The dead are fun 23:01

vor 2 years23:01

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Today’s episode is based on holidays and their meaning within the framework of the celebration itself. I take some the analysis from our group session. I read “Nature” from Longfellow. I think it is a great poem on death. What is Halloween? Christian or Gaelic or other? What is it to be religious in todays world? Of celebration of the dead?…

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Bad driver 28:21

vor 2 years28:21

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This episode is about reflective morality. I read from the book, The moral life by John Dewey. Ethics is defined as the science of conduct within the ranges of good/bad or good/evil. I discuss my metaphor for ethics: driving an automobile. I also discuss Bentham and the concept within Philosophy of law :legal positivism. I talk about the justice/revenge paradigm as well as topics of conformity and application of law as it resides in the punishment of not conforming.…

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Happy Birthday: 50 years long 26:54

vor 2 years26:54

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This episode is just basic celebration stuff. I talk about being a suicide and keeping time.. I talk about my best friend in grade school. I read from “Something wicked this way comes” by Ray Bradbury. Happy Birthday to all of You!!

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American Asylum: The structure of Trust 27:54

vor 2 years27:54

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Form follows Function. Or so it goes. This episode again ventures into political philosophy here in America while at the same time dealing with some opinions of mine about my group therapy format. The reading for this episode is taken from the Federalist Papers: specifically, no. 10. James Madison admits something about the human that have always found a bit shocking; especially for someone supporting the revolution against King George. At the nucleus of any group dynamic is trust. This trust is based on the mutualism agreed upon so the group can function as a group and meet all the needs for its individual participants.…

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American Asylum 28:15

vor 2 years28:15

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this episode is a tangent of the standard as summer has made group therapy light in attendance and topics thinner than usual. This episode deals with the timeless assumption that america is an asylum. Asylum is defined as a place or people that needs care. I think that fits perfectly. I maintain the format by reading prior to podcast, and this time I go with “Democracy in America” written by Alexis De Tocqueville. I read from Volume 1, the introduction as it begins with a history lesson of his homeland of France and rides out upon the day on the horse of equality which I refer to as a sensation (my words not his). I may or may not make a series of this topic during the Melting months of hellsummerhound.…

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Measure me, Measure you (The Flash Movie) 28:54

vor 2 years28:54

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Time is a concept that requires one to have a mental illness to keep it. The Greek believed past, present , and future meant time existed. Einstein said time didn’t exist in the way people speak of it. For me, the DC comic film “The Flash” is based on a main story line in Barry Allen’s comic; going back in time to save his mother’s life which would save his father from being wrongly prosecuted for murder and being incarcerated for said crime. it is a strong story for a kid reading a comic, and the speed force is useful in both animated movie and TV series; but lacks substance for older folks like myself. This episode I read from Hemingways’ Old Man and the sea. My name is Steven Wilson. I am a drug user and sex abuse victim. A teacher raped me when I was a child in 7th grade. I am in group therapy with other men who were also victims of sex abuse.…

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Dog Toys of War 27:01

vor 2 years27:01

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I am grateful for my life in America. I am well aware of the cancer within this country, but that doesn’t keep me from acknowledging the benefits. This episode is based off the happenings in another group therapy session between two members: one, he was speaking of the trauma of his dog losing a toy while, two, the second member was speaking of the loss of two members of his family in American wars (Vietnam and the War on terror). They both spoke in the group seemingly unaware of the content of the other. This happens occasionally so we just sit through it, but I began to think to Walt Whitman and his poetry dealing directly with the civil war in the United States of America (1861-1865). With Memorial Day coming up next week I thought it a good topic for this podcast. I read Whitman’s poem “The Wound-Dresser”. Perhaps it is true that those that praise war have never been in war, but all are brave that engage the human condition. I am grateful, but that is all I can offer you any day of the year regardless of your place in this world.…

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My Favorite Superpower 28:54

vor 2 years28:54

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This episode is based a group therapy game where everyone in the group picks one superpower they would love to have. this is a form of linguistical Rorschach in that it tells a great deal about the person. The reading is from HP Lovecraft “Dunwich Horror”. I chose the power to bring back the dead. Biblical in all.…

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Casualties of War, Casualties of Time 25:47

vor 2 years25:47

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Time. the most precious thing in the universe ; and it is the heart of this podcast-unevenly. In this episode I again speak of our group therapy discussions and deal with the war in Ukraine, and how the “victims” of a war touch the victims of sexual abuse. I read from “Are prisons obsolete?” By Angela Davis. I was always impressed with her critical thinking and how clear her writing style was in on topic she took on. I thought about her book while in therapy session.…

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A beautiful New year 26:39

vor 2 years26:39

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this episode deals with myself revisiting NA. I read from th blue book and find its opening salvo hitting the human self bulls eye. I see each person as a recipe of sorts; needing just the right amount of certain things to exist and function. obviously this doesn’t work for all of us as I am proof of dysfunction. I embrace the recipe for myself and find it easier to exist in real form.…

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The Grinch and the consumerism of Merry Christmas 27:26

vor 2 years27:26

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Tonight I speak about how one member of the group session and their testimonial about one of. The circumstances in which they were raped. The group member gave a testimonial about what happened while watching How the Grinch stole Christmas TV special. I watched it this morning and it became a slight trigger for myself and afterwards I felt sick to my stomach. It is rare that this happens to me. I read “Christmas Trees” from Robert frost as it parallels to allegory of consumerism in Christmas and the removal of the reason for the season now identified as the trappings of Christmas: lights, egg nog n brandy, presents, parties, and trees.…

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Be grateful; there are worse things than COVID 25:10

vor 2 years25:10

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Today’s podcast episode is a simple list of things I am grateful for in my life. The list is not in any special order. It is just a exercise we did in group therapy. Everyone went around after having ten minute s to write out what the things in their life they were grateful for. In this episode I go through my list and share other observations as we head into the holiday season. Happy thanksgiving…

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My Art 28:41

vor 3 years28:41

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Art is my life now and has been for a long time. this episode is about the types of art I do . Visual art Piano composition Pyrography Leather craft Poetry Fiction writing I enjoy opera (Don Giovanni) and some ballet. I attend many art exhibition openings. Art expression and creativity is crucial to my existence. Www.Steven Wilson relations.com is my current website. My online offerings are also on Amazon.…

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Trick or treat: the costume lifestyle 26:13

vor 3 years26:13

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Today’s episode is based on Halloween and a few guys in group take on safety in modern America. One of the guys in group got abused on Halloween by a man passing out candy. this started the discussion about the changes society put in place to protect kids today from danger. These things were not happening when I was young. I also speak about the concept of life as a masquerade party. this is not new, but my take on “costumes” on Halloween versus the “costumes” people wear the rest of the year. In the Halloween spirit my reading is from HP Lovecraft “The shadow over Innsmouth”.…

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medicated 30:27

vor 3 years30:27

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Today’s episode is again taken from group therapy and how two members are dealing with medication changes as well as dealing with the reality of being called patient even out of hospital. America doesn’t treat mental illness with the same vigor or acceptance of physical or biological illness. this reality is a harsh one indeed. Coping with this business model is beyond confusing for most as you universal definition plays itself out in regards to being “mental patient”. This confusion makes modes of treatment and the attainment of “being cured” beyond us all. This episode is for my people: The Mentals.…

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Happy Birthday (the city within the city) 28:15

vor 3 years28:15

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Today’s episode is about my birthday and how I celebrate things. The reading is from 1948 “Lost Son” by Theodore Roethke . I read parts 4 and 5 this time. I speak about how death and funerals have changed my view of myself and society in America. I speak on virtue and other valuations taken into consideration for a life lived as well as funerals being more for the attendee rather than the deceased. I speak about grief being about gratitude for sharing a life with the deceased. Happy Birthday to all of You!!!…

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Found Guilty and feeling Guilty 27:49

vor 3 years27:49

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This episode involve the running dialogue within my group about our Judicial in America regarding pedophilia. I take my reading from Marquis De Sade’s Dialogue “The Priest and the dying man”. The running dialogue involves the difference between revenge and justice for those prosecuted for the crimes of sexually abusing a minor. This is a topic which we discuss every time there is a news story about someone (teachers mostly) having a sexual relationship with a minor. There was a time when the Catholic Church was suspect, and I suppose they still are to a certain extent, but the school system in America seems to have surpassed them in notoriety. This episode also hints at a criticism listeners have had about my podcast: it is not positive enough. I am not sure how to address this and perhaps I was selfish in its birth and fanciful in its utility for others. I don’t know. I will say that I am grateful for those of you that do listen and decide to chime in on the topics I discuss.…

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Aristotle’s Apolaustikos (Love and happiness) 18:18

vor 3 years18:18

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Today’s episode is based on my assessment of group members in regards to Aristotle’s work on friendships. I also use Thomas Merton’s “No man is an Island”. I find that there is a different life for those of us who were sexually abused as children when people discover that we were raped; and then discover that we attend group therapy or individual therapy. The members of the group sounded off this week about how they are treated by family and friend in social situations. This made me think of Aristotle and the discussions I had about his ethics with my Uncle Hogan. I try never to become a therapist in the group, and yes, they know about this podcast. This podcast is a form of therapy for me. A piece of my treatment or perhaps self-treatment.…

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A life at sea 26:56

vor 3 years26:56

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In this episode I deal with the metaphors and analogies pertaining to life, addiction, and abuse. War. The term gets used , perhaps too much, which makes it devalued language game. Often we say, “war on drugs”, “war on poverty”, “war on depression’. I call for a war on safety…I call for a war on prevention as I believe one should embrace the chaos known as life. I am in the hurricane. I am in the dangerous grey of wind, and rain, and don’t fight the storm. A life at sea is a wonderful thing. Danger as we know it is subjective. To commit a war on yourself is a sure fire way not to heal.…

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Reasons 26:51

vor 3 years26:51

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This episode I explore the educational paradigm of being known as a victim and how that translates to those around us; especially our family and how they treat us socially. My group discussed how they are treated when they return to family gatherings and how they conduct themselves and how they are treated by family and friends that know they were victims of sex abuse as children. This is something I know a great deal about as I wrote my dissertation on building an educational system or foundation. I read from Neil Postman’s “The End of Education”. He is a great mind and inspiration.…

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What’s wrong with now? 25:15

vor 3 years25:15

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this episode is about Timing. A time to heal, a time to live, a time to die. I have always believed that now is the best time to do something because now is all you have. Making plans to do something later on may make you seem civilized or adult, but it is completely illogical. No one is guaranteed tomorrow. I begin this episode with a letter from the Marquis De Sade to his wife. In it he uses a simple analogy of a traveler on a road filled with traps. He speaks of blame; for the traveler or the one who set the traps? I have always enjoyed that as a foundation stone for philosophical discussions pertaining to desire and the concept of guilt. It seems to get people to think about the basics of cause to effect.…

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Where did I go? 26:32

vor 3 years26:32

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This episode is based on the coping skill called repression. I do not rebirth Freud , but rather I delve into how I used it to survive the traumatic events of my past and the sex abuse I suffered in the 7th grade. My coping skills revolve around hedonism; sex drugs and debauchery. All are considered to be unhealthy life choices. All are considered to be dangerous to the self. But these things help me now as they did back then as I am not any better at coping with my past.…

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Lawn care and the impression it leaves 27:53

vor 3 years27:53

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This episode I talk about the Halo effect and the way judgment takes place upon us all the time. We also judge people; based on physical traits. The Halo effect is defined in psychology as projecting attributes upon someone based on unrelated physical appearance; for example, one might say, “she looks crazy” or “he looks smart”. This show is in response to some feedback and comments I have gotten from listeners. Also, I wanted to extend an invitation to you all to visit my artist website as many have asked to see some of my recent work through art therapy. Www.stevenwilsoncreations.com There are no pics of leather craft or pyrography done within the past year and a half. There is a link to my fiction and poetry published under my real name. I apologize for being tardy on this point. It was not my intention to keep it separate; I just didn’t think you would be interested. Halo on!…

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Forget me (when you can) 26:20

vor 3 years26:20

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I had to upload this one again as the new upload removed this episode. Buzz sprout doesn’t know what happened.

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The Shooting in Buffalo 29:54

vor 3 years29:54

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This episode isn’t a regular episode. It is based on a statement from one of the guys in my adult survivor group saying that the shooting was “just another shooting”. It was uncharacteristic of him to be indifferent about such suffering and atrocity. Again, I did not analyze him or any other in the group but I do so now within the construct of the podcast. Live in your heart so you don’t become numb. If you have done so, please get back into the game, and give humanity another chance.…

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Family part 2: Birth, Chosen, and the roles within 25:03

vor 3 years25:03

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This episode is more of the clinical form of group dynamics as I do mention those things we have studied within psychology called group dynamics. Here, I equate family to group dynamics. if you listened to part 1 you will have a clearer comprehension for this episode. Plus, you miss me reading from lovecraft’s “the thing at the door step”.…

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Family part 1: Birth, Chosen, and the roles within 35:27

vor 3 years35:27

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I begin this episode with a Lovecraft story in which the main characters become “brothers” due to circumstance and commonality. This episode is about the group dynamics of family and the roles we play within the family unit. I use many things from my education; the one class I taught in college, my own group therapy, and the stories of group members. I do not go into the roles until part 2. I am not a strong proponent of strict adherence of modalities within group therapy as I also am not in regards to the family unit. This episode explores my own experiences as well as a very drooling of empirical data that I used in my dissertation from the 1990’s.…

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Relationships: Kindness and Time 36:06

vor 3 years36:06

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Tonight’s episode is about the problems males have with adult relationships after having been sexually abused as children. These include: trust, power, intimacy, and sexuality. The most important addressed in therapy is Trust. And the best way to build trust is through honesty. I talk about the point of disclosure to someone whom you have a relationship with and how it affects the relationship. I talk about my own troubles with women and the truth about my abuse and how it affects my behavior. This is something that every guy in my group survivors sessions have had to deal with and some still deal with it today. I think we never really stop being victims. In regards to my own life; all I ask of a woman to a chance to love them, and for them to show me kindness and give me time to enjoy them as much as possible. As I am hypersensitive and needy; my desired outcome may be impossible to achieve.…

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Can art save me? 27:49

vor 3 years27:49

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Toonight’s episode deals with the utility of Art Therapy. I have been involved in Art Therapy and created a significant amount of artwork based on past trauma; specifically the rape and abuse I suffered in 7th grade. Members of the adult survivor group found some images disturbing. I doubt the works will ever be exhibited. I can’t imagine a gallery willing to take on such a topic in today’s world. Humans can only take so much before they say enough is enough. Art therapy sole purpose is healing. But I think I am as healed as I am ever going to be. I don’t feel any different than when I started, but now the past trauma is now visual and reminds me constantly of what happened. I did create art from negative, but is has made art itself ugly now. I am not saying it is ruined forever, but things feel different with my studio. It almost feels I like am violated and raped all over again.…

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I impede my own progress 30:42

vor 3 years30:42

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This weeks episode is about the utility of therapy. The group is for men who were sexually abused as children. The moderator asked the question , “Why come to therapy?” It was after the session I began to analyze the people in my life outside of the group and to what value or happiness they added to my life. I wanted to know if I was satisfied or if that was even possible. As a suicide, I also began to deal with non-linear time; the ability to go back and do things differently or remove mistakes as to change the outcomes for those involved. Finally, with Me, Myself, and I, I concluded I was the impediment to that desired end. I am handicapped mentally and emotionally and have no right to continue to blame the teacher that raped me for those things I have done as an adult.…

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